I still vividly remember the moment where I was sitting in that same old situated examination hall, my mind was just plain blank. As I was reading through the passages, several thoughts flashed through my mind as I thought they were going to be some great ideas for me to pen them down later. However, unknowingly to realize, those thoughts just disappear as I moved on to the subsequent paragraphs. And very soon thereafter, I just could not absorb the contents of the passage because my mind was not concentrating at all.
Putting this reflection into place, I figured out what were the problems - hope and concentration. I realized that it was not the very the first time I know beforehand that I was going to mess up the paper, thus giving up hope and led myself to lose concentration in the examination hall. The solution to it is to learn the art of concentration. I perceive the art of concentration is when you are able to do something that allows you to flow in that living moment. At least to me, I know that I have to get this kick off by doing something that I really love and have great passion for it. About a month ago, the stock market has given me those desires and I told myself that it was the path for me. Indeed, for the past month, I have been reading and researching up on stuffs about the stock market without feeling any single bit of a chore. On top of that, I dug deep into my pocket to sign up for a course. Right now, it is almost everyday that I have the urge to look at the stock market and trying to be able to learn as much as I could.
To link the theory back, I realized I was flowing in that living moment where my full concentration just comes naturally each time I look at the market. I know people might think that this works only when you are doing something that you like. Nonetheless, I think that once being able to acquire this art, it is just a matter of choice and mindset - whether you can position yourself to flow in that particular moment. Once that is being achieve, concentration just comes naturally without any bit of distraction.
Having all these being said, I am currently still in the learning process. Nobody can predict the future nor guarantee anything. I am really thankful that I have to do this reflection lest this loser's mindset will continue drag on.
